sooner or later we`ll be looking back on everything [entries|friends|calendar] Kayla Seventeen;Canadian; Brunette;Modern If I had the choice I would have been born in England married to a business man. I'm mouthy when necessary but most of the time just generally critical sweet. I also have the potential to be painfully cheesy at times. I have a scar on my eyebrow from a barfight back in '63. ♥; Vanilla lattes, my friends, Brit pop culture, McFly, eljay, shopping, Big Brother 12345 AND 6+, American Idol (I am a character on a reality television show), Hilary Duff, the Brendan Leonard Show, Yellowcard, Busted, H20 is pretty good, the word 'cunt' rocks my socks, red hair & big ears make anyone hawt. [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

[Tuesday February ; 17 ; 2009 & 8:07am] yargh. 2;just give in

[Sunday December ; 21 ; 2008 & 10:45am] i think the story of my life is good intentions, and terrible execution. 2;just give in

[Sunday October ; 19 ; 2008 & 6:15pm] i don't understand people who can get over someone so fast how they can kiss someone else's lips after kissing only one person for so long it's weird, i kissed someone new and it just wasn't right it didn't click like i knew that it could it made me realize how special all the kisses were before that they were right and this wasn't right. not in sync. just give in

[Wednesday October ; 01 ; 2008 & 12:02am] i have terrible taste in men. why do guys play games? i don't get it. i don't think i could play a game if i tried. he knows i like him, he's known for months. we started seeing one another in august. it started as just something casual, something fun until i left for school. we both liked one another enough to try, but not enough to get hurt. but then i go and meet his family. he tells his mom what she thinks about our age difference. why would you even bother asking that if it was casual and fun? he remember every little thing i say. he remembers my friends names when i mention them, and he asks about them and their lives and about minute details that even i forget sometimes. we talk about politics and things that matter, but i can talk about the stupidest things with him too. i feel like i could tell him anything and he wouldn't judge me for it. but he ditches me sometimes. he never calls, he tells me he wants me to call. i hate always being the one to call. when we talk...we talk for hours. but i hate calling him, i feel like i'm pressuring him. i went home to see him this weekend. thursday was fine. we made plans for saturday. and then he just ditches me. but worse than that, i was already ready, and i got so fed up waiting for him that i called him...he never intended on actually informing me our date was cancelled. so i'm refusing to call. but i know that if i don't call, then he won't either. this could be the end, and although it was a short ride, i'm not sure if i'm ready for it to be over. the truth is i would talk to him everyday if i could. i never lie to him, i'm honest to a tee. i want to tell him everything about me and i want him to tell me everything about himself because i honestly care. i just want this 'can't get enough of each other' feeling to be reciprocated. i want him to like me back as much as i like him, but he doesn't. 1;just give in

[Thursday September ; 04 ; 2008 & 2:40pm] back at school for another year and i think this is the first time i wasn't looking forward to coming. even though we aren't official, leaving someone at home sucks. everytime i hear a motorcycle i get this surge of excitement, hoping that it's him. there are too many motorcycles around here, and they're never him. just give in

[Sunday August ; 17 ; 2008 & 9:12pm] he said don't get attached, he told me i was too young and he can't get over it. i've been waiting for his phone call all day. i'm an idiot. just give in

[Friday May ; 30 ; 2008 & 11:38pm] so i sorta like a man from work. he's 30. i am 20. too old y/n? eta: it should be noted he looks older than 30...he has salt and pepper hair/grey hair = hence why i am so fucking attracted to him. 9;just give in

[Saturday May ; 17 ; 2008 & 4:25pm] i need to shut up sometimes. 2;just give in

[Saturday April ; 26 ; 2008 & 8:33pm] i can safely say i ended this year so happy. <3 last night was great. 1;just give in

[Thursday April ; 24 ; 2008 & 2:47am] eff accounting. i should be studying or sleeping but i can't do either because i know that i'm going to see someone i don't want to see on friday and i'm nervous as to how it's going to go is that weird? that i stay up at night dreading this one person i went through four months of not having to see them great and now i'm more embarrassed than ever, and they're going to be in my house. just give in

[Friday April ; 18 ; 2008 & 8:09pm] today was a good day, i got a call for a job which is awesome. i have an interview for a different job on monday, so the more calls i get, the better the odds i won't have to go back to the mall. i'm not going to the movies tonight, which sort of sucks. but i could go myself, i just won't, and that's totally my own deal. hopefully going on sunday will work out. i've still got two more exams. this semester has been the worst academic experience of my life, and i will rejoice when it's over. i don't know what got into me, i never went to class, i started all my papers the night before, i was just so careless. next year, i hope i get some of my enthusiasm back. i've been meaning to watch walk hard for a few days now, i suppose i'll do that. 3;just give in

[Tuesday April ; 15 ; 2008 & 9:07pm] i feel like i'm going to explode. today sucks. 1;just give in

[Sunday April ; 13 ; 2008 & 3:52am] tonight i found out someone i thought i knew well, someone i felt was an awesome person, is actually so far from awesome. he's actually down right shitty. whodathunk? 18;just give in

[Wednesday April ; 09 ; 2008 & 9:30pm] so the strike is over. which i suppose it's good, but i have to write my finals, which kinda sucks because i was off for three weeks, so school was the last thing on my mind during that time. em's jack and jill is in a few weeks. it's weird to be celebrating the marriage of someone who made me feel like absolute shit during high school, and yet i feel as though i can't not go. i'm still deciding if i want to stay in oshawa this weekend, i'm not sure if I'm going to be up to anything worthwhile to stay in the city, especially if i have finals all week. i never know what to write in this anymore. mostly because my life consists of alot of spider solitaire/aladygma. so yeah. 3;just give in

[Wednesday April ; 02 ; 2008 & 4:31pm] man that is so lame. when you expect the worst of me, you're going to get the worst no matter what i do. especially when you don't give me a chance. i'm not impressed, and i'm actually pretty sad. 7;just give in

[Thursday March ; 27 ; 2008 & 10:21pm] i went to see drillbit taylor tonight. it was good, not great, but the theater was empty so it made it uncomfortable to laugh even if i wanted to. when did josh peck become the scariest person ever? who knew? also, my brother continues to be a prick. 3;just give in

[Tuesday March ; 25 ; 2008 & 1:02am] my school is on strike i'm home for a week. insanity! 3;just give in

[Wednesday March ; 12 ; 2008 & 4:12pm] i saw a sex scene with 'shakin'' by the dandy warhols in the background and now i can't stop listening to it. it reminds me of SEXY TIMES. i've toyed with the idea of deleting this journal lately. but all i really use it for is for superficial crap anyways. i kissed a boy. i haven't gotten over it. i think it's because i don't kiss people very often, not because i really like him or anything. so i've convinced myself i like him because that means the kisses were meaningful, which they weren't. oh well! in other news, i'm poor and have body issues. 9;just give in

mysterious, no? [Tuesday February ; 12 ; 2008 & 12:52am] i wish we went on a date. i regret how things ended. 4;just give in

[Thursday February ; 07 ; 2008 & 12:36pm] i wish i could care less when i know people are saying things about me behind my back. i wish i had a thicker skin. 9;just give in

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